About me
Alizee, Body therapist since 2020
Hi,
I am Alizee, founder of Hello Woman massages, retreats and foundation.
I am also a 36 years old heterosexual french woman who struggled (and still is sometimes) with body image, with my femininity, with my sexuality, with men and with digestive and skin issues.
Throughout my life as a woman I went to many usual (and unfortunate) struggles like many of you,
All of my attention used to go to romantic interest with men, I felt I couldn’t live without being passionately in love. When in fact, I was passionately in love and in fear at the same time.
Fear that he will leave me, fear that I was not beautiful enough, fear that if sex was not good enough for him he will not love me, and so on.
I was in fear and that made me feel alive.
However, at the same time I was unhappy, disconnected from any sensations or emotions in my body, addicted to the adrenaline of this fear.
With men and with my family, I was in permanente representation, away from myself, away from authentic.
Feeling zero aliveness within me.
When in 2019, I moved to Bali, changes
happened quickly.
Away from my usual patterns, away from my ex-boyfriends, I had enough time to reflect, to read, to learn, to talk with hundreds of other women, to discover ideas, believes, possibilities.
I was 29 and finally had experienced enough and been unhappy enough to start reflecting on my life, who I was & what I needed to change.
This process made me realized tones of things.
My main interests have been about Love & sexuality, and, as a continuity of that I discovered a new passion of mine:
Communication, relationship between men & women, and women sexuality.
The relationship I had with my body slowly changed for the best,
I got in deeper touch with my emotions, started to feel physical sensations,
and my sexual energy has awakened little by little.
I am still learning and it’s still hard.
As women I often have difficulty to feel and to know what my body is ok to do or not to do sexually,
I don’t trust my ability to say a clear No even though I am sure I don’t want it,
I am afraid I wont be heard,
I am afraid I will force myself like I did hundreds of time.
As a woman I often felt like any tenderness gesture, massage or touch is expected to become a sexual act,
I couldn’t enjoy receiving the love because of the stress of “what if I am not turned on when he is”.
“As a woman I felt hundreds of time that I should have pleasure for the man to feel satisfy, so I faked orgasms.”
All those every-day difficulties that most of the women experience,
All those difficulties that men can’t understand.
They would tell you “why didn’t you say stop”, “Why did you do it if you didn’t want to, you just have to say no”.
But it’s deeper than that, it’s engraved in the feminine brain, it’s a type of obedience that is very difficult to correct.
I was lucky enough to live an emotionally and physically safe childhood & teenagerhood, and still, I could observe within me how fucked up my relationship with myself, with my body and with men has been.
From that point, my researches in life have been around those questions:
How to navigate this world with love and
aliveness?
How to love men, respect myself and find the right path in those relationships, with understanding and respect for each other?
How do we express ourself?
How do we understand eachother?
What if I was not sad and frustrated for what feel like I gave so much of my love (or what felt like love at that time) and devotion to receive so little.
How do I awaken my life force energy, how do I have more sexual desire and pleasure? I do I feel alive?
Women, what if
What if, as women we were all confortable in our own bodies,
If we understood how it works, our hormones, our cycles, our traumas,
If we understood where our behavior are coming from,
If we knew how to make peace with bodies & ask for forgiveness to our pussies,
If we were not affraid turn on our sexual power, and not affraid of saying No?
If we were able to say what we want and what we don’t,
If we were not affraid of jugments,
Controled or controling,
Frustated,
Dead inside.
When women are empowered in a loving and respectful way, then relationships with men are better & the world becomes a better place.
All those research lead me to bodywork and massages. At first working with men & women, to slowly arriving to the point where I realized there is so much I wish for women to feel and release that I oriented myself in this direction.
This the story of how I got into bodywork and healing stuff. This is where I trained:
• Theta Healing™ 2021.
• Kashmiri Tantric Massage
2022: Tantra Essence with teacher Sarita
• Taoist Tantric Massage
2022: Tantra Essence, with teacher Sarita
• Yoni alchemy massage
2022: Tantra Essence with teacher Sarita, 100-hour course
• Lasya Meditative Massage
2022: Tantra Essence with teacher Sarita,
• Caress Meditation
2022: Tantra Essence with teacher Sarita
• Chi Nei Tsang
2024: Tao Garden with Master Mantak Chia
• Karsai Nei Tsang
2024: Tao Garden with Master Mantak Chia
• Somatic Energy Alignment
2025: With Santi & Eli SEA